Dig til you die....

As i dig myself deeper into this well...Praying i can tunnel my way out.... There seems to be others throwing the dirt back down the hole on top of my head. ..

Why even bother....

That Moment .... When your laughing and talking,  and the person you're talking to... looks at you as if you're polluting the air...

Living with the negativity...

So....today... My wife and I, were cleaning our German toys at the local self serve car wash.. And beside us was a young fellow cleaning his new corvette.. When I got home with dinner...i told my wife (who thinks my bodyguard business is a joke) ..hey..after you left... I gave the guy with the new vette one of my business cards... She says...oh..just because he has a vette? He probably lives in a trailer park... (Sarcastically... as in...my husband is a moron, and is incapable of anything) So ...I respond...sarcastically... ( as in...you have no idea what your talking about) That wasn't just a vette... it was a $135,000 vette.. and yes it was because he was driving a $135,000 super car... ( Moral of the story...) If you can't share your dreams with the ones who are closest to you without being mentally punched in the stomach... Its best to just plow on in silence.... Sent from: Bobby DeLano CEO(PEACEMAKERS CLOSE PROTECTION) Executive Protection specialist www.Twitter.com/BobbyDeLano www.Facebook.com/BobbyDeLanoBodyguard www.Facebook.com/PeacemakersCloseProtection

The curtain is about to fall....

Eventually... when those close to you constantly tell you, that you'll fail... When they laugh at you behind your back and call you crazy... No matter how confident you are in the beginning... Eventually you'll have no choice but to start believing what they say...

A warrior... scared by battle...

God tells me so often..remember....tomorrow is another day.. So look beyond those who look past their own faults, to pass judgment on you... Seek joy in knowing the peace you seek is within your own heart...not within the satisfaction of those who seek to see you fail... Strive to be perfect...but even though it is impossible...I am with you always..even when you fail me... I understand your past...I know how it has formed you...I made you the way you are so I could use you where no one else could be used... Believe that when you are at your lowest point..I am there..below you... pushing you UP... Ignore the judgements of those who have no idea of what it is to struggle financially, mentally, physically or spiritually... for they have had everything handed to, given to them, and spread before their feet, on a fleece of scarlet...because THEY haven't the strength to endure the tribulations it takes to become a true warrior... And mostly Bobby... who would you rater be standing next to in a raging battle with nothing but a sword and a stone in hand? A roman catholic pope..... or SIMON PETER..? Then..Bobby...ask your closest friends this same question...who would THEY rather be in battle with... A roman catholic Pope... Or you, Bobby? Bobby...fight each battle every day as a NEW battle.....leaving the rage you had in that day, buried in the fields of war you survived yesterday... so you will be prepared for the NEW battle today.....for YOU, Bobby, are MY Simon Peter on this day in which you seek my face... My reply: God...my Lord...I Dont know why you love me so much..but I am so glad you do... For you see strength within my weaknesses... and reveal to me my weaknesses within my strengths....and this is when i feel so unworthy to even call your name...

Wake up people..........

All my life I've heard this STUPID quote.... "If life gives you lemons... make lemonade..." Ugh! But I say this... If life gives you lemons, people...pick the lemons up and smack life in the back of the head with them! Stop Rolling over under the covers hoping the end of the rainbow will land on your pillow....but yet, stroll down the hall with determination that YOU are NOT going to allow any unfortunate situation to have Dominion over your happiness.... This this is stupid...? Then scroll through my pictures and you'll see that I've lived this... "GOD" is in control... God "IS" in control... God is "IN" control... God is in "CONTROL"! ...... "Period" !

Where did it all go...

I stand Here today.. knowing that there will probably never be anyone who will read this blog I'm writing today... But I'm writing it anyhow... I have literally wasted my entire life working to pay my increased and uncontrollable amounts of debt. I actually have nothing to show for all of my years of labor. My debt has kept me from giving to the Church like I want to so bad...it has kept me from helping loved ones in need...and now today... I have a way out of debt, but for some reason or another, God has a block on it. Do I blame Him? Absolutely not...do I anger myself at Him for not helping me get out of this hole I've dug? Absolutely not. But now the depression is beginning to flood my soul once again... My life has not been an easy one... but through all my battles... it has turned me into a warrior. But....today, I stand here beaten and worn, unsure of how much more my heart and soul can stand. Not sure if this storm I see coming will claim my soul for ransom. I've prayed and prayed with no answer, I sometimes wonder if God has just had enough of my mistakes and is saying..." Your on your own now Bobby" does this anger me? No..!.why? Simply because, everything that us upon my head ..it exactly what I have brought upon myself I feel like a kid that can't swim...but continuously jumps into the deep water and screams for help... Eventually no one will be there to pull him out. But though it all... I know that if I make it through this war upon my soul...I will come out the other side stronger than I've ever been before...