ULTIMATE FAILURE...5/1/2024

For the first time in my life... today...

The realization has hit me,

That I have been nothing but a complete failure my entire life...

I have been a failure as a son, as a brother, as a friend, as a neighbor and in every business adventure I have tried, I have failed. 

I have failed God over and over in my life, and I have failed as a Christian.

I failed so many times in school that I am still in shock today that I even graduated.

I have lived through 2 failed marriages and evey relationship I've ever been in, I have failed so bad that I am refusing to ever try it again.

And now... most of all...

I am failing as a Father...

So much so, that I don't know what to do or which way to turn.

And God is silent in my life now...I believe with all my heart, because I have been nothing but a failure in His eyes.

Everything I touch turns to dust, evey direction I turn is a dead end, and every venture I begin never ends in success.

I so often wonder why I'm still on this earth....knowing so many people would probably be better off without me being here....

Bobby DeLano 

5/1/24

Get back up....

Living your life with purpose is something every human desires, although many lost the motivation soon after their first failure...

Never give up, until you cannot get up...

Then just catch your breath and get up AGAIN....

Bobby D

10/03/2022

our nation in 2021

I love GOD, i love GUNS, I don't LIKE TRUMP AT ALL...But I love him lol... he is a egotistical arrogant jerk...but he was the most successful president in 4 years that this nation has ever had...

And if you can't see that in it's entirety, then you have no business voting in political elections.

Our nation now, is on turmoil,  we allowed a presidential administration to cheat their way into power, open our borders, allow terrorists to infiltrate our cities, abandon women, children and entire families in terrorist territory who were working for our federal government, and then in less than 10 months, absolutely destroy the economy that was on its path to being the strongest economy in the world.

We were 100% energy independent,  the stock market made historical records, fuel was at it's lowest prices in 20 years. 

Food costs were at its lowest cost in 15 years.

We had the strongest military in the world and the security of the nation was, for the first time, at its peak since Ronald Reagan was president. 

And now, we have ISIS cells in DETROIT...And in WASHINGTON DC, we have boys in GIRLS restrooms, pansy males beating up girls in wrestling competitions, pansy males competing against females in the Olympics,

And a psychologically incompetent transvestite as head of our Heathcare in this nation.

But who cares...right?

Don't argue politics with me...because I'll hurt your feelings...period...

Be OVER PREPARED...

Rotate your food stock and keep yourself in check...

We have a rocky 3 more years....

This stampede has only just begun....

NEVER AGAIN.... (covid19 entry 2)

My entire life has been one disaster after another...

All the while..

I continue to live my life in denial of such said above...

Every "best friend" I have ever had in my life, save one..

Has stabbed me in the back and turned against me like a rabid pitbull on a killing quest.

Every relationship I have ever been in...

Has failed...

Every attempt to become financially independent...

Has failed...

I have embraced my family, my entire life...

And even now...

As I try to become not only a BETTER man...

But yet to become the man I should have been decades ago.

Through all these battles and wars, I have become physically, mentally and spiritually exhausted...

I no long have the slightest desire to seek out a relationship at all...

I have absolutely no desire to make friends or even "reach out" to anyone.

I have grown accustomed to talking to myself and to God.

I try so hard to be a good daddy to my child..

That...now...is my only desire in life...

Because without that...

I literally have no reason to continue living...

Bobby DeLano 

5/14/2020

#Covid19Pandemic

My battle at home (Covid19) Entry 1

I saw my baby girl yesterday for the first time in 8 days. 

My heart is crushed. 

I am having to separate myself from her because of the global pandemic that started in CHINA in December of 2019.

Today is March 22, 2019, marks the 40th anniversary of my birth father's death.

I believe he literally hated me, he wouldn't spend time with me, or talk to me about anything. He'd just rather beat the shit out of me, rather than explaining to me about what I had done wrong.

But today, my distance from my daughter,  reminds me of how much I love her.

I am working around the public every day, and every day here in Greenville SC, the numbers as re increasing rapidly.

So many people are are so literally stupid when it comes to how dangerous this virus is.

Trying to compare it to influenza. 

I am trying to keep my distance from my daughter, just in case I am a carrier of this virus and I don't know it.

You can be a carrier of COVID-19 and be very contagious, even with no fever or symptoms. 

May God give me the strength to do what's best for my daughter. 

I will begin today, with a periodical blog/journal about what is going on in my life. 

Just in case I am one of the unlucky ones to be stricken by this evil disease.

Bobby 

Daddy loves Bella!

Never allow your struggles to determine your self worth nor the possibilities of your future...

(No matter how hard life is at the moment, it in no way determines your future... BobbyD)

IS YOUR CHURCH ACTUALLY A STOREHOUSE OF GOD?

        40 years ago...My dad died in the month of march, 1979..

My mom raised 2 little boys 11 and 7 alone..

Her only income was the money she made cleaning houses while we were in school.

She was NEVER on ANY TYPE of government assistance and she taught us to be the same...

       We struggled every month, I thank god for the eggs from my grandfather's farm and the beef he would fill our freezer with whenever he would process one of his cattle.

Our CHURCH never gave us a DIME...never showed up at our doorstep with food or offered to help repair things on our home...

I said all that to say this....

Is your Church a STOREHOUSE? 

Or just a Christian gathering place?

Does your Church only beg for money to expand the grounds or do they help the widows, elderly and children in need?

        I ask you this....Who lives within a 2 mile radius of your Church? 

       Are there any elderly who have to choose between their medication or loaf of bread?

Do you realize that a single mom who doesn't want to work can get a government check and free food...but a widow or elderly CANNOT?

Stop saying you have a food pantry and waiting for people to show up...bag it up and take it to their doorstep...

I watched my mother struggle financially and refuse to tell ANYONE..not ever her own dad...

I listened to her cry and beg God to tell her what to do...

I would listen to her try and talk to my dad in heaven and ask him what to do...

Transform your Church into the STOREHOUSE God intended to be and it will grow beyond anything you could ever imagine...

We will take on a multimillion dollar church mortgage but won't pay a single power bill for someone in need...or pay for a single prescription for an elderly widow....

LET THAT set in for a little while....

where are you GOD?

The entire English speaking nations are walking away from GOD....!

All 7 of the english days of the week are named after pagan gods. January through may are also.

We celebrate the easter (a pagan goddess) rather than the resurrection of CHRIST..

We celebrate Christmas in December instead of September. 

Whe try to say sunday (named after the son god) is our sabbath day, when GOD'S day is the 7th day (now named after the god of Saturn)

The list goes on and on.

We just get further and further away and we have the audacity to wonder where God is in our lives....