All the while..
I continue to live my life in denial of such said above...
Every "best friend" I have ever had in my life, save one..
Has stabbed me in the back and turned against me like a rabid pitbull on a killing quest.
Every relationship I have ever been in...
Has failed...
Every attempt to become financially independent...
Has failed...
I have embraced my family, my entire life...
And even now...
As I try to become not only a BETTER man...
But yet to become the man I should have been decades ago.
Through all these battles and wars, I have become physically, mentally and spiritually exhausted...
I no long have the slightest desire to seek out a relationship at all...
I have absolutely no desire to make friends or even "reach out" to anyone.
I have grown accustomed to talking to myself and to God.
I try so hard to be a good daddy to my child..
That...now...is my only desire in life...
Because without that...
I literally have no reason to continue living...
Bobby DeLano
5/14/2020
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