The realization has hit me,
That I have been nothing but a complete failure my entire life...
I have been a failure as a son, as a brother, as a friend, as a neighbor and in every business adventure I have tried, I have failed.
I have failed God over and over in my life, and I have failed as a Christian.
I failed so many times in school that I am still in shock today that I even graduated.
I have lived through 2 failed marriages and evey relationship I've ever been in, I have failed so bad that I am refusing to ever try it again.
And now... most of all...
I am failing as a Father...
So much so, that I don't know what to do or which way to turn.
And God is silent in my life now...I believe with all my heart, because I have been nothing but a failure in His eyes.
Everything I touch turns to dust, evey direction I turn is a dead end, and every venture I begin never ends in success.
I so often wonder why I'm still on this earth....knowing so many people would probably be better off without me being here....
Bobby DeLano
5/1/24
